Answers..

Just like I always I come back alone
inserting the key and opening the door
“Welcome” you say
greeting me with the obligatory
faint embrace

Because I’m afraid of pain
I always turn away my eyes and run
But everytime I smell your scent
I unconsciously turn myself around

If I asume that there’s an answer that can’t be seen
I’ll asume that the warmth of your arms won’t fade
“I love you” you say, and softly kiss my cheek
That night, we promises each other eternity

Drops of light scatter on
our big empty canvas
So many things we always planned to do
but we’ve put none of our plans to action

If we get too buzy with life
one day we’ll no longer even see the sky
As I look up at the starry sky and stretch
out my hand, I can’t stop my tears from flowing

If I asume that there’s an answer that can’t be seen
I’ll asume that my mornings with you won’t fade
“I love you” you say, and softly cuddle with me
That day, we promises each other eternity

Should I be happy, that when I walked away I
stopped when your voice went coarse as you called me?
Regret is nothing but darkness
and every time I turn away from it

If I asume that there’s an answer that can’t be seen
I’ll asume that it won’t fade
Through an open window, I see the sun
and I close my eyes as it warms my shivering shoulders
And without noticing it, I found my answer...

Our own fairy tale

Beautiful dawn. Birds flying high and low. As if they're enjoying the same view as you are. Clouds passing seamlessly. You feel your body float into the air ; getting high. It's hard to believe how things can make you feel such way.

The same way how fairy tales used to make you feel that the world is simple enough for a seven years old to understand. The happily ever after; the good always triumphs over evil and how the tortoise finally beats the hare. Fairy tales have beautifully painted our sight of the world with colors that we have yet to understand back then. Believing that there'll always be an elf at the end of the rainbow with a large pot of golds.

And then came puberty. It is as if life actually started there. As soon as puberty strikes, childhood memories of fairy tales no longer matters as how it used to be. Suddenly the world is on your shoulder. Emotions running wild. Childhood ambitions tainted with growing adolescent's pain. The pains of being not accepted. The pains of needing attention. The pains of needing acknowledgment.

It might not be enough to summarize teenage life with merely 2 paragraphs. Through the those painful teenage years, we grow into someone we barely know. Fueled with ambitions to create our own tale knowing that snow white never wakes up from the kiss with the prince.

The Inconvenient Sibling

Sometimes, as if having an irritating elder brother is not enough; he has to be super insecure and more so likes to show that he's in charge.

He has to own a big car. Even if it means he's gonna pay a whole lot more petrol money.

He gets to keep the room and the comp that used to belong to the family.

He gets aways when he tough talk in the beginning but chickened out in the end.

and the worse of all, he had to INSTALL a bloody firewall in the server that we used for internet at home that filters most of the page i visits.

Ok it's not porn. But this got to be one helluva firewall; friendsters was banned and labelled as PORN... =.=" ...

Onemanga was labelled as portugese porn.. =.="""""

Even crunchyroll was labelled as inappropriate...

Siblings rivalry? This is pretty much one-sided.

My life had just turned into a living hell.

Changes and checkers..

the very fact of being in the past irks me.

as we all know, nobody is free of mistakes. Even god. I'm no atheist although i think you can assume i am one with this entry of mine.

some of you might know, my past isn't exactly the most colorful one. This might come as a serious surprise to you both new and old readers. There's things i tell to everyone but not in details, while the details are usually kept for good and close friends.

i am always miserable. not the drama queen type but yeah. The thing i know about being miserable is that you'll never be able to see the good side of things that well. Talk about being an optimist.

people do say that aquarians are particularly peculiar. I disagree. it's not the fact that i am an aquarian , mr Holmes. . =.= "

but then again as what House would say, "People don't change".

Would you suggest that he is right?