The thought that's not getting through

I dislike expressing myself in the wrong way.

I dislike telling everyone how i feel and what i've done that day.

I've grown to hate myself less.

I've grown to think that things will eventually unfold itself to me.

I've grown to pretend that i don't care.

I've grown to deny sayings like " things will happen if they're meant to be".

I've grown to believe that you have to work for what you want in life.

I've experience loving someone.

I've lived my past few years waiting for someone.

I've learnt that even though I've been there, it doesn't necessarily means I'm the one.

I've gone through being ignored.

I've gone through being paid attention to.

I've experience giving my love to the one person i love only to be broken next.

I know until this part in this entry, you'll probably think i need help.

I know until this part in this entry, no one is reading it still.

I know for fact that loving doesn't necessarily means being loved back.

If time would turn around, i would rather live a life of solitude.

If time would turn around, i would pay attention to what's more important to me.

If time would turn for ME, i wished that someone would always listen to me

instead of me just simply ranting to everyother 'someone'.

I agree that everyone can talk all about their shoulda-woulda-couldas.

Even Me.

I've got over waiting for that someone.

I'm glad that i did.

Life is so much larger in so doing.

I guess i WAS in love with your MEMORY.

Spell it out plain..

I was born to tell you 'i love you'. Isn't that a song already?

Let's pretend we're alone.

Tell me , tell me why you think that you're 'invincible',

you'll never know what lies ahead,

i can be anyone or anything,

please don't tell me

i'm the only that's 'vulnerable',

impossible.



...These few days, in fact for the past few weeks things have been pretty stagnant. ...

Okay let me rephrase that.

For the past few weeks, things haven't been moving real fast. I wouldn't say that it's because things are dull and colorless lest it's slow. NO.

I personally not sure about why it is so. In physics, we're taught that everything happens for a reason. And for that reason, we'll find a proper solution and hence the appropriate answer on why is it so.

I guess LIFE isn't PHYSICS. LIFE prefer to leave things unanswered. The usual saying will be that things will slowly uncover itself. GOD and his mysterious ways.

That leaves me feeling uninspired.