Post Graduation Entry

I know this is probably the best time to write this.

There were alot of shoulda-coulda-wouldas in my life that i've always pondered on.

But entering UPM is a whole other thing.

I'm glad to know my first roommate, the closest to me is SIMON YYY la... he might be a jerk sometimes... but hell we both are..haha... but honestly i think we share some similarities. Just what i think :0

Then comes GOH MING ... the ever elusive and mysterious one.. all in all he's still a friend. 

Eric Wong is the 3rd guy i'd like to mention. Very reserved. I like the way he bring himself around. A large contrast of myself. A real good friend to have. 

Sylvie Wong. Pardon you, she's not Eric's sis. They only share the same surname. The first girl i saw in UPM. hehe. If i remember well she didnt have a really good first impression of me. A nice and sweet girl. Very hardworking and abit of a perfectionist also. :) Not a bad thing really. 

Angel Ooh~! Funny n blurry girl. Hehe..she'll kill me when she sees this. But she's quite a girl. I mean it in the good way. Let's play guitar together some times! 

Lee Kean aka Bear - paling ngm song her. Hahahahahaa... no la..... kidding saje. I always kacau her punya. Jangan marah lah. Keep in touch ! 

Yee Shin! She's the girl that told me i looked larnsee during the first year. Hahaa...very friendly. Drives like a pro sometimes.

Ah Fai.. he is a guy i rasa paling =.="" ....gay... hahahahahaha... Kidding la. Abit on the sensitive side only i think. Keep in touch also lah! Since u working in PJ.

Ah Jeng .. I take this chance to really say sorry lah cause i broke ur glasses during first sem. Dunno who's fault also but let's end it here. :) Nice guy! I still remember kampar trip. Haha..

Nearly forgot... Ser Yee aka 941... hyper girl..! Always ejek me... haha.. but also very fun to be with! Thanks for the Malacca trip! :) :)

There's more actually, but the closest ones are the above. But dont worry those worth mentioning is still a friend! :) Ah How, Man Cheng, Soya, Yeevon, Ah Beng, Kelvin Lau!(RObocop no need sleep punya!),Miss KAM, Panjang, Bising and more! Cant think of all ppl in uni. 

But i'd say i hope these ppl can keep in touch! Life's too short to be forgeting so many ppl. And dont worry about the order. It really doesnt mean anything. :)  

Deluded

For quite some time now, there is not one thing that ceases to amuse me except for one. One thing. No, it's not a thing. One scenario. Yes, that gives off more of a conditional feel to it. 

There is this one scenario in everyday's life that seems to be oblivious to people around themselves. I, for one have witness countless scenarios of such that it has seeped into my brain as how A is always associated with apple. 

It's about the relationship among individuals that supposed to be related but always seems to be separated by this one word, LOVE. For various reasons unknown to me, scenarios of such often happens in today's society. In short, my generation. 

In the beginning, I have often wondered; Why can't one person just love the other without reason? As often enough, most people equates love with reason. Why must you love your father? Because he pays the bill? Because he give you all the money you need? or because he raise you up unconditionally? 

As much as I despise such reasoning, I can't stop thinking the very same thing could be happening to me. Why do I love my mom? Why do I love my dad? Must I? 

The answer never came to me. As time passes, more and more of such similar scenario occured to me. Logic wise, equating one thing for another with reason is very much acceptable for today's mind. For example, like Newton's First law of motion, for every cause, there must be an effect. The reason being, the energy that causes the motion must be transfered to somewhere. In this case the 'somewhere' being the effect. Which can be anything from a broken vase, to a broken leg. 

For a moment in my life, I'd actually thought science does make sense after all. One could even apply science in religion. Don't you think the Newton law is conspicuously similar to what Buddhist believes as 'Karma'? Voila, problems solved. For every action you do to another, it will always come back to you. But this still doesn't explain why some prominent scientists are able to learn so much, but teach so much lesser back to the community. Apart from reaping the fruits of their labour. Selling their knowledge for money.

Coming back to my main story, yes; for a moment in my life I did thought that science can actually explain everything. But as i grew older, i realize that eventhough science can be applied to almost everything that is happening today, it fails in one most important but neglected issue. It is the most basic, primitive instinct that we, humans possess. EMOTION.

How can one explain why a child who loves their parents so much can be leaving them alone to celebrate Christmas every year? 

How can Einstein explain why a 75 years old grandpa who lived his whole life loving his wife, his daughter but choose to rape his 10 years old granddaughter? 

From that point onwards, things has never been clearer. There will never be a single answer for every question. Emotion is what one shows to another human being. Afflicted by both sides' emotion, there are 4 possible cause and effect now. It is entire impossible to explain that. 

There is a saying, ' If you love her, let her go'. Now how can science or basic emotion explain this? Logically if you want something, you will work your hardest to attain it. Furthermore, there is no need to explain about our basic emotion. Having to love someone is to only wish that their love is accepted and returned. And still, why is this happening? 

Insomnia

I am GOD’S CHILD
Set down upon this decayed Earth
How do I live on such a field?
This isn’t why I was born...

My stride succumbs to a sudden gust of wind
It seems like I’ll fall any moment
But these chains won’t allow it

Having surrendered up my heart to you
My feelings for you now lay scattered about
I still don’t know how to pick them up

I am GOD’S CHILD
Set down upon this decayed Earth
How do I live on such a field?
This isn’t why I was born...

Talk more about your ‘reasons’
Until I fall asleep

I’m swathed in medicine that doesn’t work
Here, there is no sound,
What should I believe in?

I am GOD’S CHILD
These sounds of anguish leave scars on my back
I can’t hang out this world
It’s my only thought: I have no place anywhere

Discomfort, a bitterly cold wall,
What will the next thing to weaken me?
Don’t reach out your hand, even at the end
You, of all people, will rescue me

From the silence

Time will speed the pain

I am GOD’S CHILD
Set down upon this decayed Earth
How do I live on such a field?
This isn’t why I was born...

I am GOD’S CHILD
These sounds of anguish leave scars on my back
I can’t hang out this world
It’s my only thought
I have no place anywhere

video link HERE

Five little pigs

I have always try to make myself known to be one that likes to divulge in mind games. But never was i good in puzzles, solving the rubic cubes and maybe even IQ questions. But then again, i was not interested in all those but one. The study of crime psychology. As this paragraph sounding more and more like a paragraph one wrote in a textbook, I would not tell you why but i will share a story from the Queen of Crime herself; Dame Agatha Christie's - Five Little Pigs. This detective fiction was derived from a nursery rhyme "five little piggy" as some of the other novels of the dame would be.

This little piggy went to market,

This little piggy stayed at home,

This little piggy had roast beef,

This little piggy had none.

And this little piggy went... 

"Wee wee wee" all the way home...

While the story has no whatsoever connection to the nursery rhyme apart from the fact that 5 five little pigs where actually in connection to a case that happened 14 years ago. Hercule Poirot was presented a case where a woman was convicted and hanged 14 years ago as she was found to have poisoned her husband to death. Interestingly enough, this happened as the five little pigs were at the scene of the crime. How would Poirot solve the case this time? I would suggest to my friends who will be reading this entry to watch it on youtube. :) Cheers~!

Here's the link to "Five Little Pig"