The thought that's not getting through

I dislike expressing myself in the wrong way.

I dislike telling everyone how i feel and what i've done that day.

I've grown to hate myself less.

I've grown to think that things will eventually unfold itself to me.

I've grown to pretend that i don't care.

I've grown to deny sayings like " things will happen if they're meant to be".

I've grown to believe that you have to work for what you want in life.

I've experience loving someone.

I've lived my past few years waiting for someone.

I've learnt that even though I've been there, it doesn't necessarily means I'm the one.

I've gone through being ignored.

I've gone through being paid attention to.

I've experience giving my love to the one person i love only to be broken next.

I know until this part in this entry, you'll probably think i need help.

I know until this part in this entry, no one is reading it still.

I know for fact that loving doesn't necessarily means being loved back.

If time would turn around, i would rather live a life of solitude.

If time would turn around, i would pay attention to what's more important to me.

If time would turn for ME, i wished that someone would always listen to me

instead of me just simply ranting to everyother 'someone'.

I agree that everyone can talk all about their shoulda-woulda-couldas.

Even Me.

I've got over waiting for that someone.

I'm glad that i did.

Life is so much larger in so doing.

I guess i WAS in love with your MEMORY.