The talks - continue

Okayss back to the story, small talks.

It comes to my realization that nobody tries to do so these days. I on the contrary, likes to make small talks. Especially to strangers. I'm not trying to genuinely impress them, it's just that i thought it's a good thing that u try to reach out to people. Now, when i say small talks it doesn't necessarily means you should simply talk to people about craps that doesn't matter and doesn't fit into the picture.

The scene of a talkative guy doesn't seem cool and machoish. Fussy, girlish and bla bla bla. That's what usually people say. I wouldn't say i don't care about what they say bluntly; i do care. So since the very first time i heard such remarks, i've been trying to redirect the enthusiasm to another place. Channel it to blogging. HAHAHAA...

The talks

Avoiding the special issue that made me angry in the previous entry, i'm now stuck in the blardy faculty of computer science. The weather supposed to be nice, since it rained daily. I had good night sleep; if you're wondering. haha. That's all that matters to me actually.

The idea of being able to make small talks between people around you sometimes deemed to be important. Oppss. class starting. be right back tonight.

The Harder the shell, the softer the content.

I feel the anger building inside me. I'm not entirely sure why i am angry.

Sometimes i just burst, sometimes i keep it in,

sometimes i just smile, sometimes i laugh it away,

but most of the time i just keep it to myself.

I dunno if it's me,

But i can't stand it anymore.

Internet Age

This is what's happening to our society. Downloads,downloads and more downloads. Why bother buying the original CDs when u can download them? Why bother buying notes on "How to sweet talk a lady into your bed?" when you can download them? hehe. Kidding.

On a more serious matter, i realize the word download is more commonly used today rather than the word buying. No statistics, just what i thought. What will you think when your kids ask u the same questions as above in the future?

Updates, updates, Read all about it!

First things first, i didn't get to change my course which equals to me working super hard this semester. When i mean super, i meant......super. XDD

But heck, i'm still gonna blog. I hope.



Moving on, picture taking is really getting into me. How should i say this, i'm starting to take more and more pictures. Even ants! (i'll find some time to upload it from my camera). But, fear not my friends. I'm still sane.

Hehe. Since Zi-Zi is back, i guess i'll try to find some time to teman him. Haha.

Blind Confusion

I know i can be kind of a nag sometimes, but i suppose i can't help not letting everyone knows what i meant. If you did not know, i had issues with miscommunication or misunderstandings. So out of habit, i tend to try and explain myself a lot. It's a pretty troublesome habit. I know.

However surprised i am to horror movies (haha..this reminds me of watching 'Alone' with zi zi) to the point where i squeezed my coke nonchalantly spilling it on my pants in the cinema; it will never be the same as when a person start asking me for my help.

Now i know it sounds weird that i'm super surprised when Help is asked from me instead of being offered to me. When it comes to that point, usually i will clarify the 'unsub' before agreeing. If the 'unsub' is a favor, i'll be more than happy to help that's if and only if ; you're a friend. xD If it's money, then you'll be in deep SH**.

Due to some unhappy experience that i've witnessed first hand, i tend to be very particular on this matter. I'll ask how much do you need, why do you need it and why is it a must that you borrow that amount of money. Then i'll tell you that yes i can lend it to you but not without any terms. XDDDDDDDD

Think twice before getting any money from me. :)

Duality

I've always believe in dualism. My view is that the world consist of 2 very important entity, which two? Good or evil? The light or dark? I'm beginning to feel that i'm speaking like Master Yoda.

Understand me, you don't.

This picture here is of one of the famous character of Final Fantasy X- Anima. If you were to observe closely, the one above is chained with the shell like cage, both of the hands are taped permanently to the body, and another extra pair of hands strangling the neck with chains. The chains are probably locked with a religious looking amulet; possibly Jesus. Excruciating pain is shown and it's sort of like it's screaming to get out of this condition.

While the one below is the total opposite. The most significant difference is the hands. It is held out, showing the ringed fingers and bracelets. He seems to be either laughing or screaming with joy. All these shows the characteristic of arrogance, competitiveness, and self absorbing attitudes.

The fact that they are joined together shows that they share the same body. This might sound incredibly simple to you. However this fact shows that it is capable of being both figure at anytime and anywhere. Describing it generally, i think the one above sort of shows the restrictions and taboos in life that one must obey. It also tells me about the responsibility of that one must bear and how religion plays an important part in it. While the one below is what we can always see from the society today. People wanting to be rich, rebellious and free. Materialistic and all sorts of fetishes.

Hence, the picture depicts that one should be in the balance of both sides, while being responsible does not necessarily means we should neglect our own needs to be pampered. Taking out the best of both sides works. But not for everyone.





picture courtesy of Brazilian_Ninja@ DeviantArt.